I have been wanting to create a website FOE-EH-VAH so I am SO relieved that I have been obsessing over this thing for the past week. When I say obsessing I don't mean that lightly. I mean, really neurotically obsessing. Somebody like me who has trouble deciding what toothpaste to buy is the LAST person who should be designing a website. Hence, the reason why this is truly an exciting moment.
This site is going to (OBVI) be a marketing tool for my entrepreneurial entertainment endeavors, (dannnng alliteration smackdown) but my intentions with it are also to realistically express what it's like to pursue an artistic career path such as the one I chose, today in Los Angeles. Yes, I am going to go there. (to the deeper place, not actually to Los Angeles....I already live here....ok anyways...)
I want to be honest, raw, real and authentic - and damn that is going to be SCARY! It's scary because it's vulnerable and revealing and I'm taking a risk with it. However, the content I most enjoy reading, watching and listening to online is all the REAL DEAL sh*t - so I'm hoping I can inspire a couple souls by doing something similar.
The truth is, pursuing a career in entertainment is HARD. It's painful, it's exhausting, mentally and emotionally draining, and makes you question more things about yourself and life than you ever thought possible. But there's a reason why all of us crazies are still doing it. There's a reason why we carry forward and march on with pride. We know that it would be EVEN MORE PAINFUL to look back years from now and say...
"What if I only gave it one more try?"
"What if I persisted just a little bit more?"
"What if I...JUST. KEPT. GOING?"
I have been a performer and a creative person ever since can remember. It's just IN me and I can't do anything about that. I'm stuck with this passion for life, whether I say so or not. It's PERMANENT. So, I have to follow what my heart tells me. If I don't, the pain of regret will far outweigh the pain of (temporary) rejection.
I'm a firm believer that persistence pays off. I know it's those few people that aren't more talented the rest, but those who persist and endure longer.
Anyhow, my ADD is starting to kick in so I am going to wrap this first entry up and reward myself with a break for getting this done. (See The Pomodoro Technique Link Below for productivity - it works!)
Thanks for taking some of your day to read about MY life, which is extremely generous of you. They say your brain is unable to feel fear and gratitude at the same time, so I'm going to end this by being thankful for some stuff.
I am thankful for: Squarespace for making a website template that's user friendly, my dog's blinking LED collar that came in the mail today making him look like a candy raver (ha!), and to anyone who has just read this first blog.
Thank you thank you thank you.